Stress keeps you up at night...

Hola Mi Gente, it's been a while since I've been on here and I know some of you are wondering where have I been. Well my marriage is great no problems under this roof. We ARE however, having issues with the in-law house. I hoping nothing too determental but that is only up to the in-laws and what they're going to do about it. Has nothing to do with us. I just pray for them.
What's really been happeing is this whole mess with the mortgage industry. Some of you who are aware know that the industry took a big hit with its subprime division, making it harder for companies like my husband's to survive. It's funny I've always been the optimistic one out of the two of us and now i find myself being the pessimist. Who'd have known that we'd switch roles when it matter most. I stay up late at night, not surfing on the web for new shoes or what trip to take but how we're going to manage to pay the mortgage, babysitting, car payment or how will i cover my mother's rent this month. Sometimes, like now, I cry and pray for a miracle..a change of some sort just to make it through the next week. There are some out there that think just because my husband is part owner of this company we get what we want through company funds, what they don't know is how they are stuggling to make sure they're employees get a paycheck for the hard work they put in to help them function. Some people just have it soooo twisted.
My family and i leave for New York this week to visit family and i'm actually looking forward to it..one, because i love New York so much...what's there not to like ;-) but mainly because we're taking two friends that have never been there and there is nothing like when you see a city you've been to a dozens of times before but this time through the eyes of a person who is seeing it for the first time...THAT'S an amazing emotion. I want to take them all over the city even to the spots that others may feel are.."not worth it" but to these two...EVERY part of the city will be worth it. I get so jaded by all the crap surrounding me everyday sometimes i lose touch of the things that really matter and this trip will be perfect for me to gain the perspective i have lost.
Hopefully it won't be too long before i'm on here again, telling you all the crazy ass shit i'm going through. Besos MiGente...I wish you enough!!!!

Its just one of dem days

I'm on one of those days...have you ever had one of those days that everyone you look at is just STUPID!!!! That's where I'm at today. Certain things I can tolerate other things i can't and stupidity is definitely one that I CAN NOT tolerate. No matter how much you tell a person what can be done and what can't...doesn't matter the stupidity just takes over. UGH!!!!!
I think I told you guys that I'm in the mortgage industry and the industry gets pretty stressful especially if you have your phone ringing off the hook and every asking what's going on with their file. I had one file come to me and then the LO (loan officer) asking when are we getting docs...WHAT!!!! Muthaf%&$r!!!! we just got the file...and now your asking for docs???!!! UGH!!!
Yesterday, i had to cancel "datenight" with my best friend cuz of shit i had to do...do I regret it? HELL YA i do...i really needed that Martini...just to calm my nerves UGH!!!
I was readintg a lil about my blood type and it was telling me that MY bloodtype is common and I could give blood to ANYONE!!!! However...not just anyone can give me blood...has to my own type..why am i telling you this? Because it goes on to tell me that my blood type tends to need ANGER MANAGEMENT!!!! Is that some funny ass shit for you...I friggin need ANGER MANAGEMENT!!!! Can you imagine all those people I could give blood to? They all would be filled with my anger management needing ass blood and let out into the world!!!! See ...that's what Bush needs to do is let me give blood to the friggin armed forces and let the troops loose and point out ALL the stupid people (ANY ONE WHO HATES US)...what a happy world it would be then...
Now...as i'm re-reading this for spell check...I guess an Anger Management class wouldn't be tooooo bad..............AH HELL NA!!!!! They can KISS MY ASS!!!!!!
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day...today just isn't that day.

Buonasera mie amici!!! I'm taking Italian!!!

Tonight was my first night of Italian class and I'm going to love it. I've been practicing all day with mie migliore amico, colpevole di redrum, who by the way has been a huge help. I take the class and all he has to do is is humor me and my emails.
The teacher is a native of Italy and has the great accent. I so want to go to Italy, the romance of the country can just captivate you. Uhhhh...i wish i had gone earlier in life, but going now would be fine too. At least I'll be going, God willing, next year.
When i do go, I'm going to hit every negozio di scarpe (those of you who know me should know what I'm talking about) I could find.
I'm beat so off to bed i go...Buonanotte...Ciao

Mr. & Mrs. Aviles, July 15, 2006

Here we are Mr. and Mrs. Aviles. This was one of the most happiest days of my life. Everything was as perfect as it could be. Except for my Compadre Rudy got real sick and was unable to give me away. So my best friend and ex, Milton Aguilar gave me away, it was truly a bittersweet moment. I'M FINALLY MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tragos Amargos

Today was a hard day...my wedding is 2 months and a week away and the pressure is starting to get to me. My Bachlorette Party is in two weeks...Vegas Baby!!!! The fitting for my wedding is ina few weeks...still losing weight...ugh!!!
So, let me tell you about what happened...Michael and I get out of church and decide to go to brunch at El Torito. So we're eating then some Mariachi come in and start to sing...when i hear the melody...I felt myself go back in time to when i was 8-9 years old when we lived in Santa Ana...the song was Ramon Ayala's, Tragos Amargos. It took be right back to that time...when i used to sleep at my grandmother's house and she'd get up at 430 am and make flour tortillas from scratch. she'd be playing that song and sing along with him and when it was time my aunt and i would wake up and eat the 1st tortilla with butter (cuz all Mexicanos know you always throw away the 1st one from the batch, but she'd let us have it) after we were done, we'd go right back to bed and wake up when it was time to go to school. Well when i heard it..i started to cry. It just reminded me how both my grandparents aren't alive to see me finally walk down the aisle. I know they'll be watching but it won't feel the same. They past away before seeing any the grandchildren get married.

"Te fuiste no se porque, Yo se que me querias y si que me adorabas...por si acaso quieres regresar..te voy a esparar...te voy a esparar...."

wheww....I miss my grandparents...I love you Abuelo and Abuela (Ama')...may you watch over me on my wonderful day and know...que siempre estaran en mi corazon...

This is my Acer!!!!

Okay, this is one of my most dearest friends, Acer whom I had lost contact with for...oh...what is it...about....6 YEARS!!!
Have you ever had one of those friends that is so down to do ANYTHING and is there when you need them...well...THAT'S ACER!!!!

Ive known him for almost 20 years...wow how time flies but I am so happy to have him back in life. Muuuahhhh Love you Ace!!!!! 

My Maid of Honor, Jenny

Do I really need to introduce this Great woman to you guys.. okay..i will...My Maid of Honor is my Comadre Jenny. Who better to stand by me than someone who seen me go through some crazy ass crap in my life (see below under, "My Bestest Friend"..;-) )

She will stand by my side as I marry the man I had asked God for.

Through good and bad and no judgements. 

My Matron of Honor, Maria A.

You've all seen this great woman before..this is My Maria (as Michael and I refer to which we are talking about, mine or his...just when you thought his and hers was just limited to towels)
When I lived in LA, Maria was a strong back bone for me and helped me to survive. It's only right that she stand up with me along with Jenny. She is truly my Sister!!! 

My Bridesmaid, Trina

Here is my sweetheart of dear friend who is one of my Bridesmaids...Trina was one of the girls that I met when I moved to Los Angeles. I 've always said Trina is so spiritual that if I needed to speak to God I could talk to Trina and my message would get to him...I love you gurl!!!! 

My Bridesmaid and Michael's Best Friend, Maria

Here we have ANOTHER Bridesmaid, Maria. Maria is Michael's Best Friend from college, she is the first person from Michael's friends that I met and hit it off perfectly.
This picture is from her wedding in 2005, Michael was a groomsman. 

From Rivals to Bridesmaid

Oh, here is another dear friend, Brenda. Brenda and I met oh..what is like 7 years ago, because of a boneheaded ex i had..Okay ready for this...My ex (no, not Milton) broke up with me to date Brenda, then later cheated on both of us with the other..did you get that? He later would tell us lies about one another so we'd end up hating each other...instead through God's Grace..we became very good friends.
This picture was taken at her wedding in 2005, I was one of her Bridesmaids...Brenda is also one of my Bridesmaids..

"From Rivals to Bridemaids" 

The two Men in my life...

Okay, I'm back...Here are the two most wonderful men in my life...on the left my future Husband, Michael (hey Baby) and on the right..my best friend til the day I die, Milton. There is nothing I wouldn't do for both these men. The one on the right was the first to ask me to marry him and the one on the left will be the last!!!! I love you!!!! 

My Bridesmaid, Sofia

I'm back... the lovely lady to you left is Sofia, another Bridesmaid and Milton's sister (he has no more), the gentleman in the middle is Marilu's (on the right) Husband, Silvio. What you want to knwo who Milton is...be back... 

My two other Bridesmaids, Nancy & Estela

Here are two more bridesmaids (which happen to be Milton's other sisters) Nancy is one of my processors (yes, we work together) Estela's daughter, Vanessa is my one of my Juniors..remember you met her earlier...hold on be back.... 

My Bridesmaid, Marilu

Here we have one of my dearest friends (who is like a sister to me) Marilu is my ex boyfriend, Milton's sister....yeah I know very Jerry Springer...not done...will be right back.... 

My Bridesmaid, Natalie and Groomsman, Frank

Here is my Baby Brother and his Lovely wife.....
The both will be part of my wedding...which I am so happy about. I am the only girl out of 5 and so Natalie is my only sister (for now...)
Thank you guys..I love you!!!

My Two Junior Bridesmaids

These two lovelies are my Junior Bridesmaids...on the left is mu niece Vanessa and on the right is my daughter, Isis. The are both 13 years. WOW!!! how times flies..I remember when they were just babaies which seems like just yesterday (could I be any more of a cliche?)  

Rough Day at Work

Okay...today was a rough day..if I hadn't told you already i'm in the mortgage industry and the end of the month is our most crucial time of the month because we're trying to get a lot of loans funded so we ALL could get paid. Well..it was rough because I had 3 deals fall out and I missed my friggin bonus because of that...that money would have come in handy for the wedding. Ugh..
it really pisses me off.

My Lil Brother and I ALL grow'd up...

Here were are oh some 30 years later!!! I can't care for his ass no more..cause he's all grow'd up with a wifey and a son. I love you Bruh!!! 

Me and my Lil Brother, Frankie

This is my Lil' Bruh Frankie and I in 1974...I was 5 and he was..I think 5 months. He was a birthday gift to me for my 5th birthday. I true live doll that I could keep and care for.